i'm very awake, and there's nothing to do. so i stare at the computer screen. i miss adam, where are you when i need you to talk to, need your trademarkedly cynical views on everything and anything? where are you when i want someone to go to cemetaries with me at midnight?

where are you when it's 11:30 and i'm staring at my cell phone and it doesn't ring and doesn't ring and doesn't ring and doesn't ring. where are you when i need you to still be my friend when so many others have left over time?

i just need a friend right now.

i have mark. he's a wonderful, caring, loving, perfect-for-me guy. i love him. i'm in love with him. but sometimes i just want to talk to someone who's always been there. who's known me from before. and right now mark's not here, he's at home, sleeping. and that's okay. i love him, he's a sleepy bunny and that's okay. mrrrrrp.